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BabyGirl, on 02 November 2009 - 10:11 PM, said:

I don`t think that anything connected with Michael will fade away easily. Because I`m sure he helped you to be the way you are now. He and his philosophy is already part of you and he already touched your hearts` strings so now it sings a duet with him. And you don`t have to think all the time about not letting Michael fade away. It`s just not possible anyway...

I feel this way too

no matter if I am thinking of him or not, if I feel pain or not, he is part of my life, and he will always be...

[magic]

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You two described that pretty well. No it didnt heal me. On the contrary...it made me realise again what we have lost...

But also you need to think what you gained. Be blessed that you knew Michael, you felt him, he was in your life, and he taught you things. Yes, he's gone but you haven't lost things that he left. There is still love, still things you got from him, there is still his music.

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I'm heart-broken. And I'm crying.
And worst of all, nobody cares. People just think I'm silly. They don't understand that because a) some of them never cared or they already moved on.

I do care and I do understand, believe me. I haven't moved on and I don't know if I will. For me it also seems that ppl have moved on but all I have to do it accept the fact they have moved on. Somebody take it more emotional, somebody not. I try to talk about Michael much, about my feelings etc and it helps me to get everything out. And then when you get it out and open up you see that the person you talked to still haven't moved on as well. More or less but we have masks on when we are in public. I am having very hard times since June 25 but ppl tell I look fresh and happy and smiling. I took 2 weeks away from theatre rehearsals and I know if they see me walking on street they will wonder why I did it cause I may seem to be ok, smiling and talking with ppl. But that's just mask cause mostly we are afraid to show our real emotions cause we are afraid to show we are weak and vulnerable. I also know non fans would not understand my feelings so I need to have this mask so they wouldn't think I am weird crying about person I never even talked to. Although some of them are really understanding

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I don't know if it will ever heal.. I miss Michael more than ever.

But in some way that's a good thing, cuz this way he won't fade away that quickly...no?

I was thinking about that too till I've seen TII which is full of love. Michael is not about the pain. Michael is all about the love. So feeling the love, you feel Michael That is what I feel

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I feel similar. I really feel misunderstood by my closest people. Although I don`t expect them to because I already knew that Michael is closed theme for them.. but it`s hard

yes, it is very hard if you can't share your emotions that are important to you with your closest ppl. I also have the same problem But the good thing is that there still are ppl who would want to listen and who would want to talk about it. I think we need to make some party for 2 some evening. We really haven't talked about it much alone, isn't it? But it is also different cause of course you want your closest person to understand how you feel. It's hard if they don't understand

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I don`t think that anything connected with Michael will fade away easily. Because I`m sure he helped you to be the way you are now. He and his philosophy is already part of you and he already touched your hearts` strings so now it sings a duet with him. And you don`t have to think all the time about not letting Michael fade away. It`s just not possible anyway...

and that is very well said Michael is already inside all of us

[BabyGirl]

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yes, it is very hard if you can't share your emotions that are important to you with your closest ppl. I also have the same problem But the good thing is that there still are ppl who would want to listen and who would want to talk about it. I think we need to make some party for 2 some evening. We really haven't talked about it much alone, isn't it? But it is also different cause of course you want your closest person to understand how you feel. It's hard if they don't understand

yep!

[Annie]

magic, on 02 November 2009 - 11:36 PM, said:

But also you need to think what you gained. Be blessed that you knew Michael, you felt him, he was in your life, and he taught you things. Yes, he's gone but you haven't lost things that he left. There is still love, still things you got from him, there is still his music.


I do care and I do understand, believe me. I haven't moved on and I don't know if I will. For me it also seems that ppl have moved on but all I have to do it accept the fact they have moved on. Somebody take it more emotional, somebody not. I try to talk about Michael much, about my feelings etc and it helps me to get everything out. And then when you get it out and open up you see that the person you talked to still haven't moved on as well. More or less but we have masks on when we are in public. I am having very hard times since June 25 but ppl tell I look fresh and happy and smiling. I took 2 weeks away from theatre rehearsals and I know if they see me walking on street they will wonder why I did it cause I may seem to be ok, smiling and talking with ppl. But that's just mask cause mostly we are afraid to show our real emotions cause we are afraid to show we are weak and vulnerable. I also know non fans would not understand my feelings so I need to have this mask so they wouldn't think I am weird crying about person I never even talked to. Although some of them are really understanding


I was thinking about that too till I've seen TII which is full of love. Michael is not about the pain. Michael is all about the love. So feeling the love, you feel Michael That is what I feel


yes, it is very hard if you can't share your emotions that are important to you with your closest ppl. I also have the same problem But the good thing is that there still are ppl who would want to listen and who would want to talk about it. I think we need to make some party for 2 some evening. We really haven't talked about it much alone, isn't it? But it is also different cause of course you want your closest person to understand how you feel. It's hard if they don't understand



and that is very well said Michael is already inside all of us

Thank you guys. If something helps me heal at least a bit... it's you. Honestly I wouldn't know what to do if you wouldn't always comfort me.

These are really beautiful words and thoughts. thank you so much!

I really wanna try, but it's hard... I hope I'll succeed at all that one day.

[magic]

Annie, on 03 November 2009 - 11:43 AM, said:

Thank you guys. If something helps me heal at least a bit... it's you. Honestly I wouldn't know what to do if you wouldn't always comfort me.

These are really beautiful words and thoughts. thank you so much!

We are here to help each other, even by listening, even by talking, it's help

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I really wanna try, but it's hard... I hope I'll succeed at all that one day.

You will... cause you are strong! Even if you don't know it.

[Phantom]

magic, on 02 November 2009 - 11:36 PM, said:

But that's just mask cause mostly we are afraid to show our real emotions cause we are afraid to show we are weak and vulnerable.

all people wear a mask sometimes, trying to hide their feelings, so they wouldn't look weak...

it's something normal, and it gets more deep and intense through the years...

it's a way to defend and protect ourselves...