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[magic]

You know I am going to London with friends and to meet friends in Syb for a week. Now I am stressing. I thought I was stressing about the time and packing. Now I stopped and I thought about it. I came to conclusion I am afraid to go cause it will be painful and I am afraid to show I am weak. I usually smile and joke around when I am with ppl but I am afraid to break down. Like being afraid that it will be too painful.

But I guess I need to face it. Sooner or later.

[Phantom]

I understand what you mean

and I'm trying not to think for which purpose we booked those flights and hotel rooms in the first place

[Annie]

That's what I was thinking before... I'll go see the Thriller Musical in December and I thought that it'll be weird seeing a guy imitating Michael. And I was so looking forward to see the musical but now I just feel weird about it.

@magic: see it in another way. like you'll go to London. you'll meet fans and friends who share the same pain! that won't be a burden but a comfort! and you kinda get to pay last respects.
I instead will be far away, alone with my pain on his birthday for example. So I do think your lucky! Try to see it in a good way

I tend to close myself in my room these days too cuz I don't want to face the world, the people, all the crap around me. But we gotta go out sooner or later...I guess.

[magic]

It's hard to not think about it, really. I am like counting days till 24th Aug. "4 days till concert that was meant to happen but never will"

[Heidi]

Mags, you'll be surrounded my strong spirited friends It'll be ok......don't worry.

We'll have a blast there, cuz I said so

[Sharon007]

I have similar feelings as it will be the first time I have seen friends since Michael died. But I think going to the musical will be a nice way to remember Michael and pay our respects . I think it will be a good thing and might help us with the grieving process

[magic]

Sharon007, on 21 August 2009 - 09:17 AM, said:

I have similar feelings as it will be the first time I have seen friends since Michael died.

I am thinking the same. Although I've met Latvian fans like 20 times, at least some of them. You are not the same, cause we always went to some Michael's parties aboard together.

Heidi, pls be there for 24th Aug lol

[Heidi]

magic, on 21 August 2009 - 09:21 AM, said:

Heidi, pls be there for 24th Aug lol

....you know, if I had known I would break down with stress, I would have booked for the 24th

But 27th is not so far away either I'll be there soon

[magic]

Are you stressed as well? nice to know I am not the only one lol Sharon and Heidi is with me lol